Dive In

Dive in to what you feel called to do. Don’t be shy. Anxiety may come, but let it run in the background as you dive in.

The chatter of the world will continue on like birds that cluck and coo. Try not to falter or get swayed among the chatter. Let it be white noise. Perhaps it was well intentioned, but nonetheless it’s white noise. Not a cluck, not a coo, not even a loud squawk should push you away from your innately desired path.

Don’t let anything steer you off the tracks, unless Intuition urges you to change course. Otherwise stay on course and continue to dive in to what you feel called to do.

Surrender

Surrender to where life goes. They say, “follow your heart.” How about instead you surrender to your heart.

Let your heart go, like a boomerang. It might come back broken, but at least you tried. Then get up and try again.

Surrender to life. It can be exciting. The butterfly feelings, the new projects, the exploration of one’s self, the opportunity to see beauty in every heartbreak and then to come back stronger.

Surrender to all of it. Some days may feel like a slog, like trudging through molasses, but it can still be beautiful. Because life is beautiful. The ordinary grind can blossom into something extraordinary. You just have to invest in the grind. Do the work. Take that one step. Then find the next stone and enjoy the climb.

As you climb you may look back and feel like you’re not getting anywhere. Surrender to that feeling. Embrace the state of limbo, the unknown. Surrender to all of it.

Photo by: Grace Foster

Sacred Life

There’s a sacredness to life. Silence coupled with the unknown gives life its sacred feel.

This can scare us and scare us often. We have a deep desire to always know what’s next. We crave to have outside sources validate us. It’s tricky to slow down, to jump off the moving crosswalk and be still. It’s more challenging to stay still and be in silence.

We struggle to let the unknown happen. We fear that it will come at us like a high-speed train. But what if the unknown emerges gently like sunlight through a window? Life is made more beautiful by this silent, unknown sacredness.

From this kind of sacredness we are forced to be utterly vulnerable and trust. This can scare us too. But vulnerability is a necessary part of accepting life’s beautiful sacredness. Vulnerability connects us to our innate humanity.

Let vulnerability happen. Beautiful, colorful life is waiting for you. All you have to do is open your heart and soul to it.

I Am Enough

Oh tortured soul why can’t you stop running around for just a second?

Oh restless heart why don’t you take some time to breathe? Please breathe.

Oh wicked mind why don’t you stop playing games with me? Quit with your jokes, the teasing and the lies.

Tortured soul why can’t you put all the reckless destruction behind you?

Restless heart why can’t you accept the way love shows up? Must you be so conditional with what is presented to you?

Wicked mind drop your weapons. Please. I beg of you. Take your blinders off and soak up reality. Life doesn’t always have to be a battle. You may feel armed and ready when you spit insults towards me, but you know it actually breaks the system down further.

Tortured soul when will it end? The war does not have to rage on. We can step into the real world with a sense of grace and peace. You may feel armed and ready when you tense up and conjure destruction, but you know it actually breaks the system down further.

Restless heart anxiety may come in, but it doesn’t have to overthrow you. Right? You are stronger than anxiety. Don’t ache for something else so much or to be someone else. Please? You may feel armed and ready when you hold your breath and let anxiety take you, but you know it actually breaks the system down further.

Hey wicked mind, you’re not wicked. When will you see that? When will you believe that “I am enough”? Because I am enough.

Hey restless heart, you’re not restless. When will you let go of that? When will you feel that “I am enough”? Because I am enough.

Hey tortured soul, you’re not tortured. When will you drop the fight and the pain of the past? When will you embrace that “I am enough” Because I am enough.

And that’s all we need to know, feel, and be. I am enough.

Growing to Change

She’s making changes. She’s growing up. She’s fighting herself and has only ever fought herself.

The war is beginning to subside. She’s making changes. She’s growing up. It’s taking time. Sometimes she has to take time away to then come back and dig deeper.

Deeper and deeper and deeper she goes, into her own world, only to emerge as a bright ball of light into the world. Do you think you can handle the bursting of her light? Do you think you can handle the explosive power of her light? If not, that’s fine. Neither can she.

That being said, she’s making changes. She has to grow up. It’s time. It’s time to come out of the tightly wound cocoon. It’s time to unhinge herself from the maddening war. It’s time to disengage from the meaningless coasting-through-life phase. It’s time to amplify and step into the hot light. Not to be in the spotlight, but one cannot be authentic if they refuse to accept the light that lives inside them. Living is equal to thriving, as coasting is equal to dying.

The soul needs to engage with the heart. The heart needs to engage with the mind and the mind needs to engage with the body. The body must engage with the soul. It’s a circle of alignment. As this engaging happens then freedom, authenticity can be ignited. Then the light inside is channeled and we are able to be. We are able to live truthfully, thrive beautifully and be without fear, as God intended.

So, she’s making changes. She’s growing up because she has to. It’s time. The war must come to an end. The light inside has been squandered long enough. It has come to her attention that she’s the only one who can turn on the light. So, she’s decided to flip the switch. The light switch moves slowly from it’s dormant state to the “on” position. This will take some time. Thank you for your patience while she works out the kinks. Thank you for living the best you know how while she works out how to ground herself and how to balance the electrical system that lives inside her.

She’s making changes. She’s getting better. She’s afraid to be too much. She’s afraid to be too bright. She knows that those who love her with all their heart want to see how bright she can get. And those that can’t take it shouldn’t keep her down. It’s time to live. She can’t coast anymore. From cannon fire to a sunken ember her light has been all over the map. She’s tired. She feels inauthentic. She hasn’t been true to herself, to her friends, or to the world.

Time to live in balance. One step at a time. Down a rabbit hole of healing she goes. Here she goes…she’ll see you when she sees you.