I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting You
and disbelieving of many things.
I’m sorry that
I didn’t believe that
I’m whole, complete,
and one hundred percent enough
just as You made me.
I’m sorry I let
fear and shame,
and anger rule
I’m sorry I let
negativity rule my life.
I’m sorry I got angry with gratitude
and I hated gratitude.
I’m sorry I got angry with myself
for just being me.
I’m sorry I was sad, and disapointed to be
I’m sorry that I’ve wished to be a different person
everyday since I was 11 years old.
that I’ve been ungrateful
to take a breath
and breathe in all
the beauty you have made.
I’ve been unable to breathe in
and to allow her innate potential
I’m sorry I never believed she had
an abundance of potential
and every second I squashed it.
I’m sorry I made friends with
I’m sorry my demons made more sense
than any ounce of light You might
have given me.
I’m sorry I said “might”.
I’m sorry I still side with fear.
I’m sorry love feels so hard
to hold on to.
I’m sorry I’ve fought with You
and blocked You out for so long.
I’m sorry I’ve forgotten
and have never felt
like the little girl
that used to spread her arms out
and say “God is eberywhere!”
I’m sorry I feel that
I’ve lost that little girl.
I’m sorry I fought with the idea
that You are everywhere.
I’m sorry I’ve contradicted
I know You are my source.
I know You are my origin and
that You could never make a mistake.
I’m working on feeling it
in my heart
and my soul
with no room for fear of any kind.
My mind knows that You are Love.
My mind knows that You did not make a mistake
when you created me,
My mind knows
many of the fundamentals
that I was taught in Sunday School
at Church, but
my mind doesn’t totally get it
and my heart and soul don’t feel them.
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for being a constant,
unmovable presence in the world.
I’m working on coming back to you
with my whole heart,
and my whole soul,
and a clear mind.
I’m learning to love
the daughter you made
so that I can love the world
with an abundance of trusted